New life old mistakes

“life is like a box of chocolates, you don’t know what you may get” It is one of those nice statements that people always try to throw to you to cheer you up. but if your anything like me and have the unique ability of always being able to pick the coffee ones (I really don’t like coffee creams) then this type of kindness is like a smack in the face. I tried getting used to how my life was (learning to like coffee cream so to speak) but I’m still unsatisfied. I have way too much in my life and someone  sold me the line “that you ladies now-a-day can have it all” Sorry girls it’s a lie. It is true you have all the opportunity you need to do what you want, but don’t be fooled it believing you can have it all.

Have a career, be a great mom, and look amazing with an amazing house to match. you can’t, nor do you need at that and god help us if we are judging others by these, better take that yard stick and hit yourself with it first. you can not do all to 100% quality (burn out!) women can juggle so much but in the end if you are truly honest you have one thing that you do, you drop things for it, you compromise to meet it, you define yourself by it. If you don’t then you need to pick one.

I’m struggling with mine but i do know its being a mom, close second to having a career, not a job, i have one of those and it knows it serves a purpose only. i have in the past balanced all the big three. result? epic fail. Crashed my whole world, risked my children, lost friends, lovely home and got divorced had to leave a patch of heaven for a broken old town. Best decision i ever made! It saved my life, truly. So i cant have it all but i can chop and chance when the opportunity opens the door.

My children thank me everyday for my decision to put them first. God knows i have to fight hard for me but i’d kill for them. To find them happy, trying hard at school, at things they want to achieve (no matter how obscured) the fact they know their own mind, it all lets me know they are by definition my children.

Dare i risk changing my priority to get a career? How much time do i have left to really make one out of whats left of me? Would it even satisfied my “itch” or it this more peer pressure to preform?


Published by BlueFalcon1983

YA Writer and illustrator

One thought on “New life old mistakes

  1. Lots of thought Sarah, You are an amazing lady, you have worked hard each day, you love your children. Each day we have to make choices, the amazing thing about choices is if it was a bad one you can choose to take a different path. God is good. God has blessed you with good supportive parents, good supportive friends and a lovely man now.

    You cannot change the past but only learn from it, grow and prosper. I think you have done an amazing job and have made some great healthy changes. You always put your children’s care and concern first and I believe that is the most important role as a mom in helping them become the individuals they need to be. You are a strong woman.

    You are never to old to build a career if that is what you want. Reach for the stars…You are young…but don’t do it because of peer pressure…do it because you believe it would help your family. It’s not about what others want or what others think that helps you choose your future. It is yours and only yours to decide.

    Sarah you are a delight to anyone you are around. You are a special friend. Tell Paige, Freya, Melly, and Josh. Hi and Hugs from the Seibel’s. Love Tanya

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